Okay so I'm finally feeling better, I'm still pretty weak from all of this, and since I've lost so much weight I don't have much in the way of reserves so 3 substantial meals a day is really crucial, but like I said I'm much better. I even managed to stay late at my friday art class and show some of my colored pictures to my group of friends and the teacher. That's always lots of fun, and I was sad I hadn't had the energy to do that since the first week of class T_T Apparently I've improved a lot and the guys keep asking why I'm not working already >_<;;; Maybe I should, I dunno I just don't feel like I've sharpened my skills enough yet but on the other hand I really do need to leap into the fray while I'm still young. And if even my teacher thinks I should start working then maybe? I dunno but anyway what I really want to say to you guys is...

Thank you for all your support over the past couple of journals with me being sick and all, it really means a lot I'd like to especially thank for leaving me nice get-well comments And to be polite I also have to thank too.

So thanks guys! I dunno that I'll be particularly active still, for one thing I've been posting stuff on some other art sites were the submission process is a lot less hectic, thus I can upload quicker without putting it off. So I dunno this place might become more of what it was originally intended more of a fanart site, but if anyone's interested let me know and I'll send you a note if your curious since it has some of my more interesting pencil sketches up there and I rarely upload any pencil stuff here.

Gah and besides whatever unkown virus or whatever hit me I've been going through a bunch of hormonal issues as well, to which my mom informed me that in our family (at least for her and my grandma) we usually have to deal with the worst part of hormonal upheaval later than everyone else so bleck. This means I've had weird sudden bouts of depression this time though I've just decided not to fight it, I've always fought tooth and nail against having to show "weak" emotions, not that I mind when others cry I dunno I just have high standards for myself or something :/ so when I bought UP a couple of days ago (found a movie store that was selling it early ) instead of just a few sniffles I was crying my eyes out almost the whole movie >_<; It's just so SAD and yet GOOD at the same time, it reminds me so much of my grandpa and grandma and it's so SAD but it's so Sweet too T_T I highly recommend it. The sweet relationship between the old couple in this movie is much more touching and poignant, in my opinion, than that absurd WALL-E robot love weirdness. It's also got wonderfully funny moments too so the sad parts sort of catch you off gaurd, but yeah I'm babbling now, I highly suggest it even if you aren't the sentimental type (like I usually am).

Anyway just wanted to check in and I hope everyone had a good Halloween! My morning was a bit shaking but I still managed to get down to the beach house and have a good Halloween night, and Elena and Diego came down so that led to lots of fun. Diego dressed up as Indiana Johns and we took him trick or treating, I sadly didn't have a costume :/ but I made up for it by having fun singing the Indiana Johns theme song with Elena whenever Diego went up to a house. Lots of the people giving out candy thought it was hilarious XD Sooo.... See ya guys later, hopefully I'll be even healthier by my next post.


Also please pray for the families of the soldiers who were injured or killed at the Fort Hood shooting.


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Ug, and still having good and bad days, today hopefully seems like a good day *crosses fingers* I can't believe I've been sick for over a month. A WHOLE MONTH! I've never been sick this long before and it's unnerving :/ especially since no one knows why, or what caused this. Apparently the ultrasound I had showed no sign of any gallbladder issues so who knows, I still take my beet herbal thing though just in case, and it does seem to help my digestion some...maybe...? I'm still waking up twitching/spasming/shaking, in fact that's usually what still wakes me up. Thankfully today it was a lot less noticeable so I got to sleep in for a bit longer, yay! But not much, I didn't want to push my luck. *sigh* so we've got the doctor at our church looking over my records and hopefully he'll find something, he cryptically said that he "had some ideas on what it could be" but no word yet. In the mean time I'm taking several different vitamin pills that my mom thought I might be deficient in and could be causing or helping trigger whatever this is. At least I seem to be having more good days but I still have bad days too :/

I'm also pretty much only getting out of the house for school, I don't really have the energy for anything else. Which means I've missed an opportunity to visit with Emily, I missed Dorothy's graduation celebration, and (although not recent) I never got to have my big 18th birthday party, or any party for that matter T_T At least when I had to stay home from Dorothy's graduation party, Elena called, and I wasn't feeling badly enough that I didn't want to talk, so I talked to her till my mom got home and that perked me up quite a bit. Which brings me to another point, once I get better I have to do something really nice for Elena and her family, my gosh a couple weeks ago when I was still going through dry heaves Elena called randomly, I didn't feel well enough to talk, but didn't want to leave Elena's call unanswered again (she had called a couple days before and I hadn't felt up to it so I just let the phone ring ) so I passed the phone over to my mom and the two of them talked. I asked my mom to see if she could talk to Elena's mom about any of her special things she did when Elena or her siblings were sick since they have all sorts of comfort and curative experience that my family lacks. (Grandpa's motto: if it hurts just amputate) Well Elena's mom doesn't just suggest we pick up this or that she actually drives over with Elena to drop off some teas for me, at 9:00 at night! I was flabbergasted, and although the whole time they were there I was worried about having to run to the bathroom dry heaving again, (Elena's already seen me vomit before I don't want that to be a habit -_- it also really perked me up to have both of them there.


I think this journal's just going to be a long rambling mess.... At least it shows that I'm feeling well enough to type, eh?

I'd also like to take the opportunity to complain about IV's, which I had the joy of experiencing back in the beginning of September. They've always looked painful, and they feel painful to, and #@$% it if you can't find the vein in my right arm then don't wiggle it around for what seems like far to long just try the left arm! You know what's silliest though? That before they did the IV they did a little finger prick test and THAT is part of what set me off, I don't know why but I just started seeing all the blood dripping out of my finger and my head started going fuzzy and faint ( HOW LAME IS THAT!?) and THAT's when they had to come in for the IV as I was starting to go into a panic already. At least after that I didn't care about any of the other shots I got...

Anyway that was quite some time ago so I'm nowhere near as bad as when I was in the hospital so, that's pretty much just me ranting about it since I didn't get a chance earlier on account of me being to sick to want to do anything besides lie in bed and watch Star Trek The Voyage home for the 100th time.

Now for something on a lighter note....

The other day I decided I didn't feel like EV training in Pokemon Platinum, and as I was trying to fly around Emerald remembering where on earth the move deleter was so I could upload them into pal park I realized how vast Hoen is and how little I remembered of journeying around it. I never really did anything much in Emerald besides rob it of it's legendaries, so I decided I'd pal park everyone over along with any useful items and TM's and start a new adventure. With the help of google I manipulated pal park so I was able to upload several sets of 6 pokemon in a matter of hours instead of days (YAY!!!) and then said goodbye to the old saved file and hello to a new Hoen adventure. I thought since it was an old game I probably wouldn't play it much cause by now I'm use to the new graphics and controls but I've found myself wrapped up in it.

I'm also interested by the news of this new pikachu wii game, :3 it looks interesting, although I wish they'd make a new RPG like XD and Colloseum this looks like it might be fun.

Also I've been able to watch a few more episodes of FMA brotherhood on my mom's labtop, I think I'm all the way up to episode 15 or 16 although I'm not sure. I was a bit disappointed they left out some of the funniest parts of the whole Greed/Devils Nest arc but oh well :/ this series is still full of greatness and I can't wait to see what Envy's true form looks like animated. I remember saying how cool that would be to see back before Brotherhood was announced. It's funny more people have been commenting on my Envy True form sculpted recently so maybe that episodes getting me some free advertisement by relation

I've also been having fun with Spore again, so addictive >:3 and I finished my Dark Tower series, I find the ending appropriate and oddly similar in feel to some sort of halloweenish LF skit. Hmmm I think I've run out of things to babble about for now, I really haven't been doing anything intense of exciting. Hopefully you guys have been fairing better. And yay finally the sun has gone away weeeee rain :3

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*sigh* It's been a rough couple of weeks...

So I haven't been on here in quite some time, obviously. Sorry for that but I've been having a pretty rough time health wise recently. I don't want to get into the nitty gritty of it right now, but I'm currently better and hopefully am not going to have a relapse *crosses fingers*. I still don't have any reserve energy to rely on so even though I'm feeling fairly good by now I probably won't be on that much, thankfully over the past three days I've been well enough to read my Stephen King book and play Pokemon instead of just laying in bed staring absently at the tv. (happy side note about that; I got a nice chain of Larvitar in platinum and have 7 shiny Larvitars, two of which appeared right after one another.) I still really don't know what happened to me, we suspect gallbladder problems, but the doctors themselves don't know. :/ I hate the not knowing...

As you can tell I still don't really feel like typing out anything lengthy like my usual updates, but I thought I'd been gone long enough that I should explain a bit of why I've been absent. I've also been looking over at Serebii and following the HG&SS updates, skimming through enough to get me excited but not so much that I spoil all the surprise, ya know? I'm really looking forward to these games and am seriously contemplating getting a DS lite for myself so that I can start amassing my pokemon empire and collect them all in Heart Gold once I've beaten it. Also the idea of getting a German version of Silver once it comes out there has crossed my mind, since it'd be a good way to keep practicing my German.

Aaanyway enough babble, my next journal update should be more explanatory and upbeat and hopefully I'll get back to doing some pictures soon too. I hope you guys have been doing well

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